Sunday Musings

I am woefully behind in my New Yorkers. Three issues behind to be exact, which in New Yorker speak might as well be 3000 pages. While I love the magazine, I find if I don’t stay on top of each issue, it beats me. Badly. I’m trying to plow my way through the food issue (one of my favorite special issues that they do) but I was stopped short by this quote from Prince in the Talk of the Town section:

When asked about his perspective on social issues–gay marriage, abortion–Prince tapped his Bible and said, ‘God came to earth and saw people sticking it wherever and whatever, and he just cleared it all out. He was, like, Enough.’

I find this interesting coming from the man who wrote a song called Pussy Control. Sigh. He was much more fun before he became a Jehovah’s Witness.
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Saturday (Snow!) Musings

It is snowing! I know that in January the novelty of this will wear off when I’ve cleaned my car off for the 100th time but for right now it puts me in the holiday spirit. Living in Indiana makes me a lot less annoyed with snow than when I was in Pennsylvania. There is no lake effect here and if we do get a lot of snow, it’s more of a treat.
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The Nutcracker was lovely. They put on an excellent production and because I love the mushrooms from Fantasia so much, I’ve posted a link below. Is it wrong that I giggle helplessly when I watch this?

Here it is.

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As my sister put it, “Aw! Le petit arbe de noel!”

Below are three photos chronicling Kweli’s introduction to my “Jammin Snowman.” As you can see, he isn’t very sure of the whole situation.

Friday (Nutcracker) Musings

My thesis went out this morning. Phew

In honor of the Christmas season (which I’m now giving my full attention) we’re off to see The Nutcracker this evening at Butler University. I have fond memories of this show. When I was younger, my parents took me to a show at the Bushnell Theater in Hartford. There was this snowflake backdrop that hung in front of the stage and it was enormous. It was also beautiful. It was set against a cobalt blue background. You could stare at that backdrop for hours.

I also associate The Nutcracker with Disney’s Fantasia. The dancing mushrooms are my favorite:

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I’ve really enjoyed the Paris Review giveaway on the Elegant Variation this week. Although, the blogs author is probably correct when he says that we should all just go and buy the set anyway. I’ve read a few interviews from the Paris Review online, but I had forgotten how good they were. At any rate, I probably will end up purchasing them. I mean really, buying books? Who am I kidding?
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OK, so the Proposition 8 Musical has been out in the universe for awhile now, but I was in thesis land, so now that I’m back among the living, satiric, and ironic masses…love it!
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Thursday (Ready to Mail!) Musings

I am finished editing my thesis. It will be printed this evening and mailed out tomorrow morning.

Exhaling slowly.
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A pop quiz found on OnTheCusp:

1. When was the last time you wrote a poem?About a month ago.

2. What was its title? Flannel

3. What was one image from the poem (if applicable)? Being wrapped in flannel is like sleeping in dirt.

4. Do you currently have a poem percolating in your brain? Yes. I have no clue what it’s about.

5. If you answered “yes” to number four, what is one image from that poem? Obituaries.
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This isn’t particularly encouraging. Damn economy.

I’ve been trying very hard to win the Paris Review Contest on Mark Sarvas’s blog, but I don’t think it’s going to happen. Here’s is a link to today’s clue.

For now, it’s a good reminder that we really ought to try and write better than a computer, while we still can.

Wednesday (Final Edits!) Musings

Before I begin working on my final edits for my thesis (yay!) I’m going to fill out this survey found on one of the blogs I read regularly. I have not filled one of these out since my days as an undergrad, but I like this one, so here goes:

  • My uncle once: fell off a roof when he was drunk.
  • Never in my life: will I wear a fur coat.
  • When I was five: cut my face open with a Bic razor trying to shave like my dad.
  • High school was: annoying and enjoyable at the same time.
  • I will never forget: the time my current boyfriend drove down to Texas to break up with me, got his car towed, had to walk to a bar (in the rain) and get a ride from a bouncer to get his car out of impound. He gave me the receipt from the towing company when we got back together.
  • Once I met: Tom Ridge.
  • Once at a bar:copied graffiti from a bathroom stall for a poem.
  • By noon I’m usually: eating lunch or grading or writing poems.
  • Last night: I made baked talapia and spinach salad and watched Mystery Diagnosis.
  • If I only had: lots of free time..
  • What worries me most: is that all I do is in vain.
  • If I were a character in Shakespeare: I’d be dead or insane because I also identify with the tragedies.
  • I have a hard time understanding: cruelty of any kind.
  • You know I like you if: I talk to you about my poetry.
  • Take my advice, never: go looking for an apple orchard without directions.
  • My ideal breakfast is: breakfast casserole my mom makes at Christmas time and a mimosa.
  • If you visit my hometown, I suggest you: bring walking shoes and a taste for cheap alcohol.
  • Why won’t people: read more?
  • The world could do without:hate .
  • I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: hurt an animal (any animal).
  • My favorite blonds are: my dad.
  • If I do anything well, it’s: be an emotional roller coaster.
  • And, by the way: I’m mailing my thesis out on Friday!

Added Note: The word on the street is that I’m getting a new camera for Christmas. Although the giver of said camera refuses to admit that’s my gift, so he keeps referring it to as a “bike.” Anyway. I’m really excited about my new “bike” and come the first of the year I’m going to post a new photo every week. Because I don’t have any just yet, I’m using this lovely picture of a hydrangea for a place holder.

Tuesday (Tired of my Preface) Musings

I’m tired of my preface. Actually, I’m tired of my thesis. I got to this point with my MA too, but I’m really tired of dealing with this document. I plan to send it out Friday and then at least it is out of my hands. I defend January 2, so I’m looking forward to that and being done. I love school but I’ve been going straight for eight years. Time for a break.

In other news, one of my students was moved to tears by The Things They Carried. I didn’t really expect them to love the story. It’s difficult and a lot of them simply don’t take the time to really delve into the text, so I was pleasantly surprised to get such a genuine reaction out of someone.

The Elegant Variation is hosting a lovely give away.

Monday (Back from TG) Musings

Poem for the week:

Love Calls Us to the Things of This World

The eyes open to a cry of pulleys,
And spirited from sleep, the astounded soul
Hangs for a moment bodiless and simple
As false dawn.
Outside the open window
The morning air is awash with angels.

Some are in bed-sheets, some are in blouses,
Some are in smocks: but truly they are.
Now they are rising together in calm swells
Of halcyon feeling, filling whatever they wear
With the deep joy of their impersonal breathing;

Now they are flying in place, conveying
The terrible speed of their omnipresence, moving
And staying like white water; and now of a sudden
They swoon down into so rapt a quiet
That nobody seems to be there.
The soul shrinks

From all that it is about to remember,
From the punctual rape of every blessed day,
And cries,
“Oh let there be nothing on earth but laundry,
Nothing by rosy hand in the rising steam
And clear dances done in the sight of heaven.”

Yet, as the sun acknowledges
With a warm look the world’s hunks and colors,
The soul descends once more in bitter love
To accept the waking body, saying now
In a changed voice as the man yawns and rises,

“Bring them down from their ruddy gallows;
Let there be clean linen for the backs of thieves;
Let lovers go fresh and sweet and be undone,
And the heaviest nuns walk in a pure floating
Of dark habits,
keeping their difficult balance.”

Richard Wilbur
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Thanksgiving was hectic but enjoyable. Pittsburgh for two dinners and then off to Erie for one more. I am looking forward to the Christmas holiday. I just need to push through this week and finish up my manuscript.

It is snowing here in Indy. I have a lot of work to do tonight and I’ve been up since 5:30…kind of sounds like a country song…
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Monday (Last Day of Class Before TG) Musings

Here is your poem of the day:

Sleeping in the Forest

I thought the earth remembered me,
she took me back so tenderly,
arranging her dark skirts, her pockets
full of lichens and seeds.
I slept as never before, a stone on the river bed,
nothing between me and the white fire of the stars
but my thoughts, and they floated light as moths
among the branches of the perfect trees.
All night I heard the small kingdoms
breathing around me, the insects,
and the birds who do their work in the darkness.
All night I rose and fell, as if in water,
grappling with a luminous doom. By morning
I had vanished at least a dozen times
into something better.

Mary Oliver
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When I Was the Muse



When the painter said, OK, you guys,
take off your clothes!
I startled at the plural,
assuming I’d been engaged to model by myself.
But then the dark-skinned god I knew as Aaron
from my Econ class unzipped his jeans,
and dropped them, grinning, on the floor.
So I did, too, and clambered up beside him
on the plywood box that elevated us above
the clutch of paint-stained easels. Thoughtfully,
the students posed our naked bodies. Someone fluffed
the crispy hair between my legs into a dark brown
bristling fan. And someone pinched the sides
of Aaron’s face to pinken up his cheeks.
Privately, I installed myself inside that mental space
where I had hidden as a child when the world
could be aborted no other way …

It was part of my plan to walk unclothed
among the portraits my unclad body
had provoked. So when we broke
for lunch, the students lunging in a herd
out back to smoke, I did. If you had asked me
then why I modeled, I’d have said,
to overcome my bourgeois insecurities,
to combat my fear of what might happen
if I showed myself completely naked
to someone else. But if you asked me now?
I’d describe the privilege of walking among
A museum of strangers’ images devoted to oneself,
and tell you what a privilege it was to see myself
the varied ways that others did.
Some silly fellow had painted nipples on me the size
and shape of frying eggs. Another jokester
had shrunk them down as small as M&Ms.
But someone serious and sad had shared a vision
of my head as a clotted orb of hair and mouth,
and brushed in underneath, a body headless
as the horseman in the myth. Then I seemed
to walk into the darkroom of my mind’s own eye
and saw the self I’d always felt inside but never known:
a complicated, unsmiling creature with a fear-tinged face.
Around her the aura of something golden was fighting
with whip-like straps of something black. She was staring
straight into the future, trying to get out, trying
to conceal her fear, completely unaware
of how it glistened and glowed, and of how
irresistible it was for the artist to spread it
across the canvas so that everyone could see.
Kate Daniels
I can’t remember if I heard Kate Daniels read this poem at MSU or if I read it in one of her books.
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I’ve spent the last two hours working on revisions to my preface. I’m going to take a “break” now and grade the rest of my first round of argument papers. I still have two classes to do, but I figure I can work on those tomorrow. We’re not leaving till around 4. Busy busy busy…

Friday (Productive) Musings

I came to school today for my last new faculty orientation meeting. It was scheduled for 9:00. At about 9:45 we all became suspicious of the fact that someone had forgotten about us. We were right. While I’m pretty good natured about these kinds of things, mostly because I planned to here anyway this afternoon, I can’t help but agree with one of my colleagues when he made the comment “this underlines the dysfunction that is______(fill in school)” The institution as a whole is experiencing growing pains, but hopefully those will smooth themselves out in the upcoming year.
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Yesterday, cut up the preface to my thesis. Literally, I took a pair of scissors, and I cut it into twenty six separate paragraphs. This is mostly due to the fact that I want to reorganize it, and it is two difficult to try and do it on the computer without having a visual map first. After I finish typing this blog entry, I plan to continue reordering it and then I have to come up with names for the sections. I always struggles with prefaces or introductions. I did with my Comp and my Master’s thesis and now with my MFA thesis. I’ll be glad when I can send it out and not worry about it anymore.
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I’ve had cause over the last few days to ponder the issue of aging. I’m still thinking it over…
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We’re going to see Evil Dead the Musical at Theater on the Square Saturday night. I’m looking forward to it. It’s the first show I’ve gone to see in awhile.

The following blurb is from Theater on the Square’s website:

Based on Sam Raimi’s 80s cult classic films, EVIL DEAD tells the tale of 5 college kids who travel to a cabin in the woods and accidentally unleash an evil force. And although it may sound like a horror, its not! The songs are hilariously campy and the show is bursting with more farce than a Monty Python skit. EVIL DEAD: THE MUSICAL unearths the old familiar story: boy and friends take a weekend getaway at abandoned cabin, boy expects to get lucky, boy unleashes ancient evil spirit, friends turn into Candarian Demons, boy fights until dawn to survive. As musical mayhem descends upon this sleepover in the woods, “camp” takes on a whole new meaning with uproarious numbers like “All the Men in my Life Keep Getting Killed by Candarian Demons,” “Look Who’s Evil Now” and “Do the Necronomicon.” Outer Critics Circle nomination for Outstanding New Off-Broadway Musical.

Thursday (Exahustion) Musings

I’m tired. My eyes are tired. It has gotten to the point where I have enhanced the size of my computer screen because the regular sized font is starting to blur. Part of the problem is these fluorescent lights. But mostly I’m tired, and while the end of the week is in sight, I don’t think there is going to be any rest for me until after the first of the year.
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Earlier this week, I was completely taken with the issue of Poetry I had bought at our local newsstand. I sent out my subscription letter (something I’ve been meaning to do for months) and set about to reading the great Adam Kirsch essay and the reviews. The essay was great, and I’m sure I’ll also enjoy A Guildhall Summons: Poetry, Politics, and Leanings Left, too. However, the first set of reviews by Carmine Starnino, well enjoy is not exactly the word I would use.

I have not read the Boland book or any of the books for that matter, that Starnino reviewed. Between my thesis, teaching four courses, the creative writing club, and life, my reading time has been cut down quite a bit this semester. I’ll be better in the spring.

All that aside, I can see why one of my fellow poets had this to say about Poetry: “I either want to call everyone I know and tell them about the issue or I want to throw it against a wall.” That’s pretty much how I felt when I read those reviews last night.

While it obvious that Starnino is knowledgeable and highly intelligent, it is also obvious that he knows it. It may be because I find myself constantly defending poetry and poets to my students who accuse both of being pretentious and high brow, that I’m particularly sensitive to snobbery. At times the condensation seems to come through a little too much. I mean if a book isn’t any good, it isn’t any good but I felt like with some of these reviews (Boland especially) the books were being shot, hacked up, buried underground, and then a high rise was built on top of the grave site.

That being said, he did convince me to check out The Currach Requires No Harbours.
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Visual Poetry?